In case anyone was wondering . . .
I notice that I only made 5 posts in 2012, and I’m ashamed about that. I’ve already explained, many times in previous posts, why sometimes I disappear for months at a time. Simply put, there doesn’t seem to be any point in updating the blog if I’m not working on Juvenilia. But while progress is painfully slow, I have not given up on the novel nor this blog.
One may ask, rightfully, “What’s the deal? Why can’t you find time to work on the novel?”
It’s true. While my day job does consume a lot of my time, I do have some free time — on some days. For me, though, time isn’t enough. I also need to be in the right state of mind to think about the story, the characters, and what I want to do with them all.
Maybe that’s a flimsy excuse. Maybe I’m just a big procrastinator. Maybe. But one thing is certain, the guilt and despair I feel at seeing another year pass and Juvenilia still not published weighs heavily on me. It’s a loss of momentum. It means I have to wait to begin working on the other story ideas that I have. I’m not happy about it, but all I can say is that the novel will get published, if I don’t die first.